Flowers, sunflowers
2006年9月7日星期四
2006年9月6日星期三
妈妈的秘密武器
早上带妈妈去蹭学校的免费早餐。说是免费早餐，一个月只有一次，但是规模隆重，有穿正装的侍者为你端茶递水，有的时候弄得你都不好意思说，我能自己来吗？为了让妈妈了解人民的疾苦，决定让她受受这个洋罪。早上8：30的早饭，妈妈8点就开始催我起床了。嘿，你还别说，早起有早起的好处，从来没见过学校里有饭局的时候这么井井有条，而且食物充沛。一般来说，我们这个教员穷凑合的学校，每次招待大家，不是东西不够，就是布置些让人难以下咽的东西。这次，简直是满汉全席！我匆匆忙忙吃完了，赶去上课。中午妈妈问我，为什么有个老太太一桌一桌地和大家握手，还特别跑到她这儿来，和她说了半天，把咖啡都撒了。我寻思了半天，哪儿出了这么个神人啊？再一问长相身高，举止态度，原来是新就任的校长！好家伙的，我还没见过她的金面呢，妈妈都跟人家套上瓷了。
不过这也难怪，妈妈真是办洋务的一把好手。 别的不说，就说这附近超市的行市，没有一家她不是门儿清的。别管是日本人、韩国人、墨西哥人、中国人，还是美国人开的店，甭管您说哪种语言，妈妈都能驾轻就熟地讨价还价，直到买到最物美价廉的东西为止。一开始她搞不清楚蔬菜是论个卖还是论斤卖，她就观察美国老太太怎么买。时候久了，她不但掌握了每一家超市每周特价的规律，而且对于什么东西该在什么时候在什么地方买，都有了深刻地了解。于是乎，平常我们不买《世界日报》，只有周四买，因为这一天刊登法拉盛超市的降价广告。妈妈的购物世界已经从上西区（upper westside）扩展到曼哈顿的唐人街和皇后区的法拉盛，甚至有一次她甚至探险到了Staten Island，那个连我都没去过的地方。我觉得妈妈真是有潜力办一份中文的penny saver，以她的热情和无畏精神赢得全体读者的心。
其次，妈妈的手段还表现在她处理两岸三地的关系，以及中日关系，中韩关系和中美关系上。没事儿她就捉摸怎么做吃的，而且对在公共厨房里做饭的其他各国同学表现了极大的兴趣。有的时候，她兴冲冲的跑回来报告说，今天日本同学和韩国同学又在烤制蛋糕了，是旁边的台湾同学帮她全程翻译的。有的时候，她比手画脚的和我的塞内加尔邻居探讨，应该在甜食中使用蜂蜜还是红糖。她最高兴的时候，就是等锅贴、饺子、包子、糊塌子出锅的时候，给这一层楼她认识的左邻右舍送去，这其中至少包括上面提及的各位同学，以及她们的男朋友。用我的话讲，要是在汪辜会谈中使用妈妈的厨艺来巩固两岸人民的感情，海峡两岸早就统一了。最值得一提的是，妈妈马不停蹄地日夜酿制甜酒酿，一旦熟了，立刻告知大家带着家伙来领取，并且告知食用方法。要是有人赶上我们在厨房里吃午饭或者晚饭，妈妈都要拉人家来尝尝鲜儿，有的时候干脆给人家搬把椅子一起吃。做饭的时候她也不闲着，总是爱和别人拉家常儿，所以我住了三年都不知道名字的邻居，妈妈三言两语就把人家祖宗三代都打听清楚了。她最爱听别人夸她手艺好，可不是么，矬子里面拔将军，她比我们这些二把刀的厨子都强。
最难得的是，妈妈有一颗金子般的心。在她的心里，没有国家、种族、贫富、血缘等等种种歧见，在她的眼里，看到都是远离家庭、不远万里到这里来求学的年轻女孩子。我想有一天，大家会很怀念妈妈的餐桌和有妈妈在的厨房的。她的厨房包括了纽约所提供的最好的东西，一个家！
2006年9月4日星期一
动物园的残酷
动物园是残酷的。小的时候会觉得这个命题很搞笑，但是随着年龄的增长，对于事物的看法改变了很多。昨天去了布朗克斯区的动物园，回来以后觉得很郁闷，想了半天，原来是因为在动物园看了很多残酷的东西。
首先想到的问题是，我们有去或者不去动物园的自由，但是动物没有在或者不在动物园出现的自由。一旦被卖到动物园，不论你是狮子、老虎、大熊猫，都被判处了无期徒刑，直到死亡。
其次，动物没有选择自己居住环境和邻居的自由。一旦被指定了住所，几乎没有可能更换。非洲区总是非洲区，老鼠不能要求到猴子馆居住，反之亦然。最可怕的是不能选择你的邻居。可爱的小熊猫非的住在高山雪豹旁边，而中国麋鹿就住在老虎对面，每一天都得提心吊胆地听老虎大发淫威。
再次，动物们没有选择恋爱或者不恋爱，生育或者不生育的自由。这其实也是问题的出发点。我到老鼠洞里去看老鼠，发现每个笼子里都有很多的老鼠。根据它们的发育速度和生理规律，不出一年，就会繁衍到整个纽约市。所以动物园一定采取了人为的措施来控制老鼠种群的数量，也就是说，计划生育。相反，如果你是大熊猫，不管你愿不愿意，动物园都会想方设法激起你的性趣，或者干脆跟你来个人工授精，让你尽快开支散叶，落地生根。
此外，动物没有选择自己饮食的自由。就连老虎也不得不忍受balanced diet，除了牛肉就是牛肉，没劲。
最后，动物没有回避讨厌的人类的自由和任何的隐私权。在刚果，有个讨厌的家伙接连不断的用闪光灯对这一头大猩猩照相。大猩猩恼了，以十万火急的速度冲向玻璃幕墙，冲向那个家伙。它在玻璃墙上撞得满头金星，愤怒极了，立刻转过身来，用屁股对着那个讨厌的家伙。每一天，动物园都要赢来无数讨厌的家伙，他们以为买了门票就可以为所欲为，用闪光灯和尖叫打乱了本来就难以忍受的动物园囚禁生活。
如果有一天，动物园没够存在的必要了，那一天就是动物的节日。摆脱人类的控制，自由自在地吃喝、行动、恋爱和交配，多美！
2006年8月31日星期四
Last day work
Finally, it comes to the end. I will finish my job at TC library today and literally unemployed from now on. While I still hold a graduate assistantship at CU, I feel my connection with TC becomes weaker and weaker as I approach the end of my dissertation period. Yesterday, I had this strange dream in which I got a doctoral degree from School of Information Science with my best friend. I was happy and confused. The new semester always makes me nervous and hopefully this will be the last one of my student career and I will leave for good.
Alexithymia
Alexithymia (the Greek words λεξις and θυμος, literally "without words for emotions") 我觉得我得这个病了，你呢？虽然比麻疯病好多了，但是其实更加变态。这种病叫做“感情的哑巴” ， Peter Sifneos 1972 年发明的，就是指那些在理解、处理、表达自己感情上面存在缺陷的人。具体的表现有：
在识别、表达、和对付自己的感情方面存在问题，此外对他人的感情缺乏理解；常常对由于感情所引起的身体反应感到困惑；不怎么做梦，不会产生幻想，因为想象力有限；习惯于现实地、实事求是地、逻辑地思考，排除任何感情的因素。得了这个病的人经常汇报一些逻辑和实际的梦，例如去商店或者吃饭。Alexithymia 属于神经失常，它也是人个性的一种，可以用Toronto Alexithymia Scale来测量。 现在来测量一下吧： 你有多久没有对自己或者别人交待过自己不可告人的欲望了？
又及：昨天就碰到一个真正变态的，在桑拿浴室里自慰，也许是温度和湿度都适宜吧。我现在天天都去体育馆，也不知道是犯什么病。有人说，具体地说是Will and Grace那部电视剧说，体育馆是同性恋的教堂，天天都要去报到。拜托，我不是啊。But I do feel good after the workout. The thing is I feel guilty if I am not going. I guess this is the typical mentality of thirty something.
2006年8月30日星期三
Kingdom of Heaven
Kingdom of Heaven is a movie released on May 6, 2005, written by William Monahan, and directed and produced by Ridley Scott. It stars Orlando Bloom, Eva Green, Jeremy Irons, David Thewlis, Marton Csokas, Brendan Gleeson, Alexander Siddig, Ghassan Massoud, Edward Norton, Jon Finch, Michael Sheen and Liam Neeson. The story deals with the Crusades of the 12th century, and involves an Artificier and Enginer (that is, someone who makes siege engines), serving as a village blacksmith who goes on to aid the city of Jerusalem in its defense against the great Islamic leader Saladin, who battles to reclaim the city from the Christians. The script is loosely based on the life of Balian of Ibelin.
This is not a movie for bedtime, not even after dinner. A lot of blood was shed and many tears. One should at least read the wikipedia version of historical account before seeing the film; otherwise, it is too easy to be confused. I feel like watching an English version of 三国演义 , with more blood, lust and frustration. The story is about the failure of the third Crusades in 12th century and is a mixture of history and fiction. To a large extent, it tried to paint a pinky version of Muslim and Christian relationship then which was criticized by many historians. The director defended himself by stating that he “sees this portrayal as being a contemporary look at the history. He argued that peace and brutality are concepts relative to one's own experience, and since our society today is so far removed from the brutal times in which the movie takes place, he told the story in a way that he felt was true to the source material yet was more accessible to a modern audience. In other words that the "peace" that existed was exaggerated to fit our ideas of what such a peace would be, because in the time it was a relative lull in Muslim-Christian violence during this period compared to the standards of the day.” It seems to me a real good explanation of WIKIALITY, a history is a story the majority agree upon.
Orlando Bloom was too young and innocent to play the role. Even Jeremy Irons was a dread in the film. On the other hand, the Syrian actor Ghassan Massoud was praised for his portrayal of Saladin, described by The New York Times as "cool as a tall glass of water." The Americans are too eager to tell a story they don’t understand, to glory a history they don’t possess, and to make the history a light and portable version. The film is definitely better than Troy or Alexander, but it is not a work of art which we are looking for, a work with quality equal to The Name of the Rose.
Death of a writer
Naguib Mahfouz, the Egyptian playwright and screenwriter who won the 1988 Nobel Prize in Literature and was widely regarded as the Arab world’s foremost novelist, died today, Reuters and The Associated Press reported. He was 94. Here is a clip from his famous novel "Children of Gebelawi":
Whenever someone is depressed, suffering or humiliated, he points to the mansion at the top of the alley at the end opening out to the desert, and says sadly, 'That is our ancestor's house, we are all his children, and we have a right to his property. Why are we starving? What have we done?' "
2006年8月29日星期二
Jude the Obscure
Don't ask me why I am obsessed with this film. Just the way it is.
Jude is a 1996 English film, based on the novel Jude the Obscure by Thomas Hardy and directed by Michael Winterbottom. It tells the story of a stonemason pursuing the cousin he loves even though both are married. The screenplay is written by Hossein Amini. The original music score is composed by Adrian Johnston. Christopher Eccleston played Jude in the file, who (born on February 16, 1964) is an English stage, television and film actor, best known for his roles in several high profile low budget films and television work. He is 100 times cooler than Jude Law. A great stage artist as well.
In the Victorian period, Jude Fawley is a young man with dreams of receiving a scholarly university education. Circumstances conspire against him, however, forcing him into a job as a stonemason and an unsatisfactory marriage. He remains true to his dream, however, and years later, after his wife's sudden departure, heads for the city. There he encounters his beautiful cousin, Sue Bridehead, who shares his intelligence and his disdain for convention, and the two develop a romantic relationship. These unlikely lovers must struggle to keep their relationship from a disapproving world, however, or else face the tragic consequences of public scandal.
Wisdom of Crocodiles
梁普智 Po-Chih Leong, the director of 吸血情圣 The Wisdom of Crocodiles (1998) . Gosh, I love Jude Law in this dark film. Before he died, the vanpire asked the most strange question of all time:
"Evil isn't just malice, murder and rape and massacre. Before everything, the devil is the father of lies. The lies you tell, the truth you don't tell. Everything hidden is theft. Everything reserved from those we love is fraud. And there's always something, isn't there? What everyone wants is for evil people to be off insidiously committing evil deeds. Then they can be separate from ordinary men and women and destroyed. But the line that separates good and evil cuts through every human heart. And who is willing to destroy a piece of his own heart?"
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