2006年3月4日星期六

About 徐静蕾

徐静蕾 is a smart girl and she is one of my favoriate Chinese actresses. In one interview, she responsed to the question, "what is your ideal type?" and gave the follwoing answer: 娇点:你希望的自己是什么样子的? 徐静蕾:特有耐心的,心特别宽的,可以给别人很多好处的。 She said she wasted many years to understand what she is and what she wanted to be. At age of 31, she felt "我觉得感情是一门科学,每个人有自己的磁场,受生理和心理的双重影响作用,如果两个人合适就会幸福,不然总有人受伤。每个人一生之中都会有伤口的机会,但是不过是当时不合适。不能说是爱错了人,只是当时不适合,这个道理我到现在三十一岁才弄懂并且承认". I know these sound pretty middle-class orientated and only people who are not worried about living can talk that way. But why not? She is living a kind of luxury life which most of can not afford, and that is the reason why we need the super stars at the first place. The unique characteristics of her is that she knows who she is and she knows the ridiculous of being celebrity. Besides, she looks like my close friend Xiao Rener a lot. They actually look like twins. So I'd rather believe she has a lot of quality of Xiao Rener, like being idiosyncratic, refused to cooperate with the mundane world, and thinking critically about herself and the world. I have not talked with Xiao Rener for a while. The last time I met her in Beijing in Aug 2005, at Beijing Film Academy. We spent the afternoon together, ate, talked and brought some DVDs in small shops. Our worlds seemed to be apart and our lives were on different trajectories. She worked as an editor for a film journal in Beijing and with her M.A. in screen writting, she spent most of her time writting novels. She liked to write from our middle school years and she was more mature in thinking from started. However, I always feel the loneless of her talented mind, even she was in close relationship with her bf. Now she was alone by herself and stayed marginally with her family as well. We had long conversations about movies we loved and the impossibility to be a writer in a commocial society as ours. She onced studied Russian and wished to study in Russia, but the plan falled. Now writting was her only excuses from the real life, but she knew this peaceful life would end soon once her journal went into "market". She was the one who introduce Milan Kundera's works to me in high school, and we read many of the Russian authors in the "Silver Period" from 1890 to 1920 together. As a daughter of a Chinese literature professor, she always criticized the life of old-fashioned intellectuals as her parents or new-styled intelletuals who got doctoral degree in U.S. and become U.S. citizen as her brother. The difficulty for her is to find her own way of living, which should be different from both extremes. She struggled and writting was her attempt to find way out. She might know about all these since she was very smart. But it is hard to take action and I don't know where she will have the strength from. In late 20s we all trap in our own piece of mind and hell. I saw a postcard in gym today about human brain in a bottle. The coach of Yoga class this morning said, our brain is about 12 pounds. He suggested the invertical position in yoga is a way to separat us from the real world and retreat to our mind. In this sense, many positions have both physical and mental effects. I don't think I take what he said literally, but I appreciate his sympothy for the struggles of our ordinary lives. It is hard to put us together every morning and staying normal for most of the day and go to bed without regretting too much for what you have done or not done today. There is already too much complaints for one day, I need to go back to work.

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